Last night here

Today is probably the worst of the days so far.. all my stuff in boxes, everything that we are;

That we were, the last 3 months are a blur.

Been numb on auto pilot, just getting through the days.. staying strong for our kids while my mind is in a haze.

I don’t even recognize my hands anymore.. realized that tonight. The rings have been off for a while, but when I saw my finger it just didn’t feel right…

I still fidget with that finger, but there’s nothing there to twist around.. and then suddenly these emotions slam onto me and put me in the ground.

Lately I’m not the same-I’m so quick to be short with my children… and I don’t even know what to do, or how to start over and begin again.

Yet here I am-trying and fighting for myself. I’ve tried and fought so long for us-gotta focus now on my own mental health.

As Ariana says, Just keep breathing… it’s only me. And maybe that’s all I need.