Write Drunk; Edit Sober.

  • Pray for flowers and God gives you rain…

    36… how many more times can I feel this way? Thought I’d never go through it again when I said my vows, and it’s somehow spiraled into this. But there’s beauty in the sadness I think… to know you genuinely loved someone so much that it can cause so much…

  • Nervous system

    You’re there.. when I wake up in the middle of the night. Instantly grabbing my phone to see if you were thinking of me too… Get ready for the day, show up at work and the second something crazy happens-you’re there. I ache to tell you about it; but I…

  • Lover girl in a toxic world…

    New lips, new hands-a new “knew” from a time before..But he is so gentle, so country.. and he even opens my door. New hand on my thigh, new truck in the drive.. and yet it doesn’t feel unknown… This time it feels different, this one is a man-this one is…

  • I lied.

    No rhyming this time, I’ll do my best. Just gonna say these feelings straight from my chest… Life is crazy-everything has gone hazy, but I’m happier than I’ve been in a while. Maybe things will be different this time with you, my brain knows different but my heart is in…

  • wtf

    Stomach in knots, felt sick all day. What does he wanna talk about, what does he wanna say? Shows up nonchalant, handsy cause it’s been a while; arms wrapped around my waist, his presence, yah it makes me smile. Talk turns to shit, not where I saw this going.. these…

  • Honesty

    I read back my own words and it has my mind fucked up.. I wrote these things about you-and yet here you are, still a present in my life.  What are we doing?? What the fuck is this??  Sometimes it feels so good… so good. But there’s something huge that’s…

  • Speaking it into existence

    Not sure how I did it-but I did. All of the things I said I’d do-I turned into reality. For myself and my kids there isn’t anything I won’t accomplish. I’ll climb the mountains, swim the seas-I’ll make it a reality for them and me.  Still have days where I’m…

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    Wtf did I just find? I know it sure as hell ain’t mine..  Thought it was a Lego, scattering across the floor-but after searching it’s something I’ve never seen before?  Flashbacks; panic; instant PTSD. It’s in my house… did you take this here with me? I ignore all the stories,…

  • First.

    The first of October; maybe we are really starting over… You walk in my home comfortably, you even stay the night. Shotguns of your air into my lungs makes me feel like everything is right. I can’t help but keep my guard up-just waiting on you to switch.. and toss…

  • Kiss it better

    Clamped down to perfection, strokes that are deep and soaking wet. No matter who else comes into the picture, we are as good as it can get. Tongues playing, hands gripping, and exhales that fill the air. Trying to keep it down, but when you’re there I just don’t fucking…

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