•Losing Weight•

Time to let you go.. you’ve shown me enough signs for me to know…

To know you’re no good, you’re so full of lies-you showed up in my inbox in a total disguise.

Then you show up for real, and things turn intimate.. but it’s not love with you, it’s just your intent.

Days and weeks of leading this up end in your “distress” and every single fucking time you leave my heart and mind in a mess..

I told you I’d give you space, and this time I mean it.. you do these things, say these words and then just make me feel like shit.

Such an empath so I worry, but I’m done being your clown.. I’m over it now for real, and no I longer want you around.

You started off so clever, so perfect with your words and flowers.. you use to call me nonstop, literally by the hours.

Then idk what happened.. you flipped a switch. And at first I thought maybe you had a side bitch.

But now I’m seeing clearer and understanding the flags, you’re not who you said and that guy is gone and it drags.

Really you’re alone, so closed off and depressed… and saving you, well it’s become my mission-my heart you possess.

No more now, it’s to the point of losing myself.. and I’ve lost enough this year, you need to go find yourself.

I’ve never been a come over to fuck kinda girl, but I tried that with you and it sent my existence in a whirl..

I know I deserve better, kept picturing you as “that” guy.. but then you don’t do what you say, and I stay up all night wondering why…

Why wasn’t I enough for you-why her and not me? What did she do so right, why can’t we just be?

You orchestrated this person, who is not at all who you are… and that is the person I’m missing, and he’s gone and he’s gone far.

He never existed, but boy did you play a good fake… everyone was right about you, my heart you did break.

I’m seeing now with clarity, no more denying my intuition… I would’ve never gotten so deep in this mess if I would’ve just listened.