Nervous system

You’re there.. when I wake up in the middle of the night. Instantly grabbing my phone to see if you were thinking of me too…

Get ready for the day, show up at work and the second something crazy happens-you’re there. I ache to tell you about it; but I can’t. You’re still there. 

Come home, take a nap-big surprise, you’re there. Whether it’s a quick dream of you or looking for your existence for the day, I know it’s inevitable. 

But come night time? I think that’s the worst.. There’s so much throughout the day I want to tell you.. I wonder where you are or what you’re doing, but I can’t even dwell on it because it’s a 50/50 on whose house you’re at. 

So I pour a bath.. and a bourbon. I crank up the music so loud I can’t hear my own thoughts… 

Then it’s bedtime.. and you’re there. Like consuming my thoughts for the entire day wasn’t enough-there you are. So I pray on it and beg God to take you out of my brain; to just erase you completely. 

I fight the urge to sleep cause I know the dreams will hit.. vivid as if it were reality; you’re there. And I’m stuck waking up to the reality of it all. 

You aren’t there.. 

So I get ready for the day.. and something crazy happens.